She felt alone she didn't have no friend to tell. She felt awful, she had considered him taking him to court realizing that she's have to re-live that night. She lost and felt even more awful.
She felt lost , she didn't know why it had happened to her. She sort of blamed God and at the same time made herself believe she was strong. Although she then learned that God was the one with her, that he had truly never left her sight. She has regained all that power she thought she once had lost.